Hello, my name is Liz and I am fat.
It started in college. No, wait, I take that back. It started when I was 10. That was when I went through Puberty, and gained hips, thighs, and a butt. Quickly. Then I continued to eat as many sweets and sodas and other confections of sugary goodness until I suddenly weighed...well...a lot.
So my mom and I went on Weight Watchers. I was 16, and I was determined to be thinner. I gave up regular soda for diet and cut out sweets. Quickly, I dropped 20 lbs and WW. Now that I was a svelte 130, I didn't need them anymore. Silly me.
A year or so later, it was time for college. I think it is pretty common knowledge that binge drinking + living down the hall from a vending machine stock full of all the goodies you could want at 3 AM = Not good for the waistline. I soon gained 40 lbs. Hmm, this sucks.
So I started smoking. Gained another 5 lbs. Hmm...
Then I fell in love. Got engaged. Tried to diet so I could fit into my gorgeous wedding dress. Gained 5 more lbs from the stress of trying to lose weight.
After getting married, love made my carefree. The hubby and I bonded over wine and ice cream. 10 more lbs. What happened to my svelte 130 lb body? I've suddenly gained 60 lbs in the past 4 years! Sucky...what's a girl to do? Maybe....get pregnant! Sounds good!
I was slammed with morning sickness (...or all day sickness) I couldn't keep anything down, not even water. I was actually hospitalised because I became so dehydrated. And I lost 15 lbs.
Turns out that was mostly water weight. Although, I actually did a fairly decent job of controlling my weight gain during the pregnancy, mostly due to the fact that I developed gestational diabetes and was put on a low-carb diet. When I delivered, I weighed 217 lbs. My baby was only 7.5 of those. But when I left the hospital, I was down to about 200. My belly deflated really quickly too, so I didn't even have the pregnant look anymore.
I figured that since I breastfeed, the weight would soon begin to melt away. And it did at first. I was down to about 195, and feeling good that the numbers were going down. Then, when my son was about 1 month old, I met a girlfriend and her daughter at the mall for a "playdate." Right next to the playcenter was a Starbucks, somewhere I hadn't really been in months. But my girlfriend wanted a drink, so I got one too. It was wonderful. I loved it. I savored every second of my Venti Iced Decaf Nonfat Nonwhip White Chocolate Mocha. And I figured with all the goodness taken out of it like that, it couldn't be too bad for me, right? So the next day, I got another. And the day after that, I got one too. This went on for 2 months. One day, while perusing the Internet, I checked out the Starbucks website. Turns out they have a little program where you can "Make Your Drink" and find out the calorie content. Imagine my shock when I find out that my drink, with no goodness, was a whopping 470 calories! If I had whipped cream, add another 130 calories! And if I forgot to tell them to make it nonfat (heaven forbid!) another 50 calories! On some days, I had actually consumed 650 calories in one drink! Holy crap! A lot of times, I got a scone as well. No wonder I quickly shot back up to 207 lbs!
So, here I am, at 203 lbs. Fat. With a 4 1/2 month old baby boy I adore. But still fat.
And that is why I started this blog. I need to lose the weight, and get rid of this freaking spare tire hanging around my waist! I can't really say how I will write in here, maybe just keep a record of what I'm eating, how I'm exercising, and my general mental status. We'll see.
What Spare Tire?
